it's just so stupid and not even important and i'm so upset and frustrated and it just really hurts and i'm so scared because i can't handle anything and i hate that and i hate not knowing and i always thought i was really lucky because it was really certain for us but now all of a sudden it's not and i'm frightened and i don't like it and

I don't know normally I love Valentines day and things but this time I just feel really sad about how I can't keep anything together and don't know what I"m doing and I'm really confused and I don't want to have to go to work and I don't want to go to school and I hate everyone and everything and all my recent bad decisions.

today was such a stupid day

i hate myself a little bit and everyone else too