I need lots of hugs now please

I thought I was doing so well aoegubjnlaegjakn what the fuck is this

I just hate myself
Plain and fucking simple
I try not to and everything but it's underneath everything

And I think to myself that I hate other people
But I know I don't
I just hate myself

This is so disgusting. Someone please help me. I just want a fucking hug. What the fuck.
I go to the mirror to tell myself nice things about me but then I'm like I'm such an ugly crier and my thighs are so huge
And It's like what have I done to get like this
I feel so sad. Someone please hug me it's all I want.

I'm so so so sorry for anyone reading this. I always post these things and it's so fucking selfish of me.
Just
I'm so sorry
Don't bother anymore or something